listening to an audio, with my beloved headset. "subliminal alpha and delta waves." put together by holosync, i think.........
petting the dog.
i hafta admit, i'm a little run down. just running back and forth to the CAO, cooking, taking care of Roscoe.......mundane, low-energy stuff. takes on a whole new meaning when you're dizzy. glad to have Jay around. he's a good listener, and unobtrusive. can't retreat to bed anymore, if just for my spine's sake.
and........breathing. its been hard to maintain mindful, balanced breathing. i find myself actually holding my breath, or breathing in a broken, non-rythmic pattern. paradoxically. I wish instead of being a respiratory therapist, i could be a breath therapist. what a difference mindful breathing makes in your life. of course you have to choose to make a difference in your life. that's the hard part. in order to choose the path to wellness/happiness, you have to deserve it.......... in your own eyes. tough fucking audience; the toughest.
i've noticed my posture is off too. this weekend is going to be a "cleansing" weekend. for me, and the hovel. and that dog! i want to pick up some beets. i have apples, pears, carrots, and yams; all organic. between that, and my morning cider vinegar, i think i'll de-tox well :)
two liters of water upon waking. 8oz of water, with organic apple cider vinegar. then my coffee!
then lemon or lime infused water throughout the day.
i want to set up the tarp on the wooden frame out back, to catch water, but will wait until i'm not alone to do it. next is the bio-sand filter, which will feed the alkalizing tank. i'll find some limestone. free, i hope. need to retrain my brain to not take that ringing so seriously, and doing things is the best way to do it, methinks.
after i cut fluoride out of my diet, maybe it will be akin to coming out of anesthesia. i wonder how long it takes to clear? years....?
maybe i'll just breathe.............